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I've been wanting something really significant so bad that I've been pushing it away and didn't truly, definitely, actually realize it until 323,476,309 moments ago. See, there's a difference between the energy of the feeling of having something and the energy of the feeling of wanting something...this is worth reading a few times. Soak that in. This is THE difference between this experience becoming yours or not. When we want something so bad it hurts, it's the hurt that you feel strongest, and the strongest emotion/feeling is the actual vibration you’re radiating, causing you to get more of the hurt...this is also worth a few read overs. It's a lot to process. I'm uncovering how important it is to pay attention to our emotions, they absolutely play a key role in our creating. We are creating every day, all day with these
emotions->thoughts->behaviors->decisions->actions->habits.
We either create by default or deliberately. Bringing us back to our feelings. The energy behind want is "I don't have this yet." The energy behind have is "I'm enjoying this." In order to receive, you must convince your self it's already done. It's already yours. But how?
Through repetition, persistence, patience, determination, time, failing, crying, learning, frustration, continuing, focusing, discipline, and faith to never give up until you've achieved the goal of creating the image of the ideal self/life experience to your subconscious mind.
Shiiiit, it's hard!
If you're like me, you didn't know that you were AS responsible for your life as you are. You used to think that everything was happening to you. And so now that you do know it's all happening from you... it's overwhelming still, and the fact that you've been living your life in that mindset for over 20 years, means it's going to take time. I've been on this conscious, self uncovery journey for going on 12 years, and it still feels like I'm just scratching the surface.
Eye feel there's an art to letting go because it entails so much. And how much more intense is it to learn something through experiencing it instead of just reading about it. A whole set of senses are ignited that just doesn't happen as a spectator. Hm. Anyways, I've been doing some experimenting with creating in regards to the mundane, everyday things we deal with in life; and it's been really neat seeing how in the letting go of the desire of something/event, you're accepting that you already have it, which is an energy of indifference and/or a higher frequency emotion. This then removes the emotional charge around the feeling of want and let's the energy of satisfaction take over and create automatically. It's a crazy ass paradox that eye find fascinating. Now the thing is, it's easier to navigate things/events which don't already have so much emotional charge around them. Meaning it's easier to create/manifest ticket concerts than say, your ideal partner. This is because whatever underlying emotional truths are present surrounding the topics that are of extreme importance to you will always be the strongest emotion and perpetuate that emotion or experience leading to the emotion...hope I didn't lose you lol.
It's really about soothing your emotional charge around your desires and releasing the idea that you can only be happy when this thing/experience is yours. The moment to moment emotions are the ones that are creating future moments. Find joy and appreciation in your present circumstances and maintain and sustain the expectation and knowing that it is done. Yes, I repeat, an art.